Long time no see. Lots happened. Can’t keep a diary. Don’t have time to write everything down. I try to play catch up now.
I am annoyingly happy. Which is annoying for everyone who meets me.
The facts is I don’t have any reason to be happy. And I have every reason to be happy.
For example, this piece of music makes me happy:
Or this article made me laugh out loud. When I read it, I realized I am not looking, not seeking anyone. Because I am all right now. I don’t miss anyone and I don’t feel “half”. I am happy as I am.
At last I DO understand and totally accept the fact that I might be alone all my life. And that’s all right. I don’t have any objection. I like my own company. The acceptance of this fact makes me very happy.
I don’t have the desire to be in a relationship. Everything is good as it is.
My basic attitude to life: if you have a place to sleep, food on your table, people you can love, beyond all this everything else is a gift. I’m alive. Fully avare of my choices and opportunities.
“In the dark I have no name”